I have been sooo tired this week. I was ready to pass out at 7:30pm last night, but forced myself to stay up until 9pm and I was out the minute my head hit the pillow. Maybe its from emotional exhaustion. The week following a visit with my family is always hard. My mind wanders and fantasizes about life near them. I dont miss living in the same house as all of them- dont get me wrong, I love them but its best for your sanity if you take them in doses ;) Visiting them reminds me how much I miss simple things like family dinner, quick runs to walmart, and being totally sold out to mom and dad by your shit-head brother.
Me & Jeremiah
Me & Corey
Me & Christian
Its been emotionally exhausting for other various reasons. I'm pretty sure that about half the people I care about have verbally bitch slapped me this week. A "friend" of mine even "broke-up" with me, declaring that I party way too much and am ungenuine. Its so ridiculous its laughable. I have stepped foot in a bar ONCE since my 21st birthday and probaby complained most of the time to the chagrin of my fellow "party-goers." And I think I am an extremely genuine person, almost to a fault. I am me 100% of the time and at first glance it may come across abrassive or something... but when you've known me as long as this person has. I dont know. Its just ridiculous. They are significantly older than me but have dragged me back to drama of a high school variety.
But. To count my blessings. It never fails to make me smile, my eyes tear up sometimes, when I put Colden down for a nap and I sing him "You are my sunshine" and I end it with "You'll never know dear, how much I love you- please dont take my Colden away!" and give him a kiss he sings back to me "please dont take my TT away!" If no one else in the world gets me, at least Colden does :) No matter how frustrating a 2 1/2 year old boy can be, that moment every afternoon makes it beyond worth it.
I finished part of the baby blanket I am making for new-baby Tobias! I have completed all of the crocheting and am biding my time now to see if they're going to find out if it is a boy or a girl so I can appropriately choose the backing material, silk, and ribbon. In all honesty, it would've been cheaper for me to have just gone out and bought a blanket for them but as I've told Christine "You can't buy special" and its the love and heart and time that I put into that I will be passing on to their little one- not just a heap of fabric.
Adam and I are doing really, really well and he lights up my life. He called me this morning and said, "I called to tell you that I have super powers and am always right! I possess super-human smelling senses that surpass the ability of your inferior civilian nose. Remember that garbage smell I smelled last night and you told me I was a weirdo-beardo with a sensitive nose that lies? Well... I found the source. Raccoons knocked over our garbage cans in the backyard and ripped apart everything. Oh, its okay. I picked it all up, it was disgusting. But I just had to tell you that I am right and superior."
He absolutely cracks me up. There's been lots of laughing. I cant wait to see where our lives take us over the next few months. He makes me very happy. He makes it all worth it. He is my generic-brand Edward Cullen. Dang- I'm gonna have to get a good picture of what Adam looks like on a daily basis and do a side by side comparison of him and Robert Pattinson... you'll see!!!!
Lastly- I miss you, everybody!
Me & Christian
Its been emotionally exhausting for other various reasons. I'm pretty sure that about half the people I care about have verbally bitch slapped me this week. A "friend" of mine even "broke-up" with me, declaring that I party way too much and am ungenuine. Its so ridiculous its laughable. I have stepped foot in a bar ONCE since my 21st birthday and probaby complained most of the time to the chagrin of my fellow "party-goers." And I think I am an extremely genuine person, almost to a fault. I am me 100% of the time and at first glance it may come across abrassive or something... but when you've known me as long as this person has. I dont know. Its just ridiculous. They are significantly older than me but have dragged me back to drama of a high school variety.
But. To count my blessings. It never fails to make me smile, my eyes tear up sometimes, when I put Colden down for a nap and I sing him "You are my sunshine" and I end it with "You'll never know dear, how much I love you- please dont take my Colden away!" and give him a kiss he sings back to me "please dont take my TT away!" If no one else in the world gets me, at least Colden does :) No matter how frustrating a 2 1/2 year old boy can be, that moment every afternoon makes it beyond worth it.
I finished part of the baby blanket I am making for new-baby Tobias! I have completed all of the crocheting and am biding my time now to see if they're going to find out if it is a boy or a girl so I can appropriately choose the backing material, silk, and ribbon. In all honesty, it would've been cheaper for me to have just gone out and bought a blanket for them but as I've told Christine "You can't buy special" and its the love and heart and time that I put into that I will be passing on to their little one- not just a heap of fabric.
Adam and I are doing really, really well and he lights up my life. He called me this morning and said, "I called to tell you that I have super powers and am always right! I possess super-human smelling senses that surpass the ability of your inferior civilian nose. Remember that garbage smell I smelled last night and you told me I was a weirdo-beardo with a sensitive nose that lies? Well... I found the source. Raccoons knocked over our garbage cans in the backyard and ripped apart everything. Oh, its okay. I picked it all up, it was disgusting. But I just had to tell you that I am right and superior."
He absolutely cracks me up. There's been lots of laughing. I cant wait to see where our lives take us over the next few months. He makes me very happy. He makes it all worth it. He is my generic-brand Edward Cullen. Dang- I'm gonna have to get a good picture of what Adam looks like on a daily basis and do a side by side comparison of him and Robert Pattinson... you'll see!!!!
Lastly- I miss you, everybody!
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