just because

Amidst the emotional roller coaster that is trying to organize your life and your future despite everything you DONT know outweighing everything you DO know... I catch a glimmer of the beautiful gem stuck in the mud (translation= my life!). Not that my life is muddy and terrible, I'm quite content, its just very stagnant. And if you know me... you know that I HATE HATE HATE stagnacity. But I need consistency. Ack! I'm such a complicated person!!! Anyway... last night, in a very quite way, my life reminded me why I love it so much. It reminded me that no matter how tired I am, how irritating he gets, or how stagnant it seems- it is worth every second.

Adam and I sat on our sofa last night. I made dinner and we sat in front of the TV eating and watching South Park. It was an episode where Oprah's vagina & butthole call Heraldo Rivera. It took us about two minutes to lose our appetite. But what worse, the only thing on TV was College Basketball and reruns of 24 (ahhhh! the nightmare of it all!!!!). So we turned it off and finished dinner quickly.

"House" doesnt start for another 45 minutes... what're we going to do?! EASY! We play old-school street fighter on the xbox360 until he's beaten me and I'm whining.... that took about 7 to 10 minutes. I had an idea!!! I ran to the bathroom and grabbed the Cosmo I keep on the back of the toilet for poop-reading and grabbed two pens and two pieces of paper. Adam humored me and we did this Cosmo Couple's Quiz. It was funny and I got to steal a good chunk of Adam's manhood by begging him to take it with me and learn all about how big of a pimp he was in the 5th grade. (Cosmo was right, we DID learn something new about each other :) !!!)

I then began to fold laundry. Adam is entirely incapable of doing so ever. He will do eighty thousand loads of clothes and not fold a single item. Then he accidentally mixes up a few dirty clothes with clean clothes and freaks out and washes them all over again because now ALL of the clean ones are "dirty by association." So. To avoid this travesty- I started folding the mounds in the spare bedroom. House came on and it was wonderful. I sat in my Goucho's and old ripped up Pacific University hoodie and NAP slippers. He sat in his basketball shorts, tee, and a micro-suede comforter. During a commercial I put the clothes away and he dished us up a bowl of Frozen yogurt. One scoop of 3 different flavors.

And we ate. Hugh Laurie was insulting people and it was funny.

The evil old hag that calls herself our "Landlady" interrupted to have us sign a lease, check our oil, and yell at us. By "us" I mean Adam. Because I hid in the other room with my bowl of ice cream trying to blend in with the sofa. Adam even brought the papers to me to sign and listened to her bitch at him for ten minutes all on his own without complaining about it to me later.

We then made silly/creepy faces at each other during commercials. It made us laugh really hard for a long time. We snuggled. That is when Adam sweetly said to me, "You know... I hear a song on the radio today and it reminded me of you. Now every time I hear it, I'll think about you!" He had a big smile on his face. I got butterflies. I asked, "Really? What song?" and he said, "Its on Z100. It goes 'I know that I've got issues, but you're pretty messed up too'" and I sang "Either way I found out, I'm nothing without you." and he smiled bigger "Yup, that one!" "My Life Would Suck Without You by Kelly Clarkson." He smiled even bigger and kissed me on the forehead.

He has never ever, not even once in our relationship EVER... said a song or something reminded him of me. It was very special.

And I'm gonna say thats basically the best night ever.